in my life span, has lots of what i call "spiritual awakening" episodes where where i discuss both the mystical psyche of the mind the a strict (logical, i should mention) manual structure, and due over whelm comfort i get more slother, but thats i dont hold hatred to any action i do since im an enviormental victim in a place and enviroment i didnt choose at all, i dont victimise my action, even though i hold a guilt when i see the mosque i used to go that i havent visit in a while, but i believe a temporay feelings (as it should be) and i feel life could get better and my phyiscal, sensational structure will get better when i get more in control with my enviroment, thou for i believe devolping a cool yet widely epxiemrented mindset will lead to a good progress in a life of a 22 year old and under paid college student for unwanted major